We Made It

Okay everyone!  So Nathan and I are fully moved into our first apartment together and we could not be more happy! I’ll show you some pics of the place and just we made it.  Through everything that life threw at us, we made it.  Nathan turned to me the other night and told me he was happy.  Happy.  Those words I had not heard him say in a very very long time.  Actually haven’t heard him say he was genuinely happy since we dated back in high-school.  But he said this with a smile on his face and he just held me closer to him and I couldn’t be more enthralled!  He’s been so great and last night he called me wife ❤ This man is amazing and I am way too blessed.  God has given me someone who is going to love me for who I am and enjoy the rest of my life with!  But before I get all mushy gooshy like I tend too, let me show you the pics!

1618448_1552203178390503_4235848798195479053_n Okay so this is a little window by the stair case that is just darling!  So for now I have some stones and crystals setting there but eventually I’d like to get an orchid or some type of flower 😀

10003930_1552622418348579_1063473872418907392_n So some one once told me to enjoy the neatness while you don’t have kids so until I do, I dedicated two cabinets to just looking nice lol.  We do use these dishes but they are washed immediately and put back 😀

10441472_1552597945017693_6586116397772829177_n This is our dinning area in our living room and I think this table just fit so perfectly! I think it’s super cute 😛

10995688_1552543551689799_1204525156898281758_n In our living room is a bookshelf that is also our tv stand (you’ll see this in a later picture) and the center focus is this Bible.  Of all the books we have, the Bible is the most important one and I think it helps represent Nathan and I’s faith.  It was my Great Grandmas Bible given to my Grandfather at her death and is just absolutely beautiful.

11024713_1552599331684221_8601599613614559533_n This is a cabinet just for the beautiful decor cups! The clear ones are the ones Nathans mom got us and the blue and clear ones are the ones my mom gave us 😀

11025814_1551765301767624_8559252498336532283_n These pics show the first day we were there! The soap in the top left corner is some soap that I got from the local soap shop! Living Simply Soap is the best and it’s all made at the shop!! then all of Nathan’s stuff packed and our bathroom.  The lights in the kitchen are rounded so I thought that was cool looking; the salt and pepper shakers; and then finally the back half of our living room facing the stairs 😀

11030857_1552623201681834_1518426435656248502_n This is the rug that I wanted so dearly for our kitchen and man does it make the kitchen look good!

11034176_1552818238328997_3759592263869424503_n Here’s part of the living room including the little dinning area which i think just flows so well!  The Bible right in the center of the book case just, fits so perfectly!

11036266_1551953515082136_7106840191425567562_n Laundry area!  We were so blessed to have so much help furnishing our apartment to really make it feel like home!

11041741_1552599761684178_3965773963886418521_n Here’s the kitchen area.  I wanted to do colorful but not gaudy so I took Nathan’s sister, Sarah, and my dad to make sure I didn’t get too carried away!  (I tend to lol)

11042960_1552819234995564_74102321879733902_n  Here’s a closer look at the bookshelf/tv stand.  The Sing, Dance, Live stones were given to me by my mother and the basket next to the stand holds all of my Bible study stuff and a blanket in case anyone gets cold 😛

11046608_1552627561681398_1485191172859691516_n And finally, this is Nathan and I’s bedroom 😀

The only picture not on here is one of the game room only because we’re not done setting it up yet! Once we are I’ll update it!  Until then thanks for reading!


Words Cannot Describe..

As I sit here this morning, I have curled on my lap my cat Milo.  Milo is the greatest bundle of joy to have ever walked into my life.Image (a picture i just took of the two of us)

I love both of my cats, but I will always have a special connection with Milo because of how I received him.  As much as I have saved his life, he has saved mine.  Anytime I am depressed, he always comes around to cheer me up.  Anytime I just want to cuddle, he is there on my lap.  Anytime I need a companion, he is there to lift my spirits.  Honestly it’s hard to think where I would be without him!  The reason I decided to go to school for vet tech all happened when I had to take Milo to the vet to get dewormed.  Had I not met Milo, I may not be in school; my life was altered for the better the day I decided to take Milo in.  Of course had it not been for Nathan and his amazing wonderful family (who I was living with at the time), I never would’ve been able to keep him.  Milo (and eventually Xander) lived at their house with me for three months!  Had his parents not been so willing to let Milo be invited into their home, I wouldn’t even have him in the first place.  Then I moved back in with my parents and brought both of them here and my family has absolutely fallen in love with them ❤

I was in the transition of moving out of my own place and back in with my parents (roommate situation fell apart) and the McKinney’s let me live with them for five months before I was finally able to move back in.  They are wonderful, gracious people.

Nathan and I…where do I begin?  I think I’ve told the back story but let me refresh it..Nathan and I dated for 2 years in high school, and he and I were high school sweethearts.  We were each others first time and he’s the person who knows me the best.  We broke up soon after I graduated because I was going into the Army and I wanted to be single for that.  I was medically discharged during boot camp and rushed into moving out.  Two years went by and one day Nathan and I just reconnected and caught up on each other.  We literally stayed up all night talking on the phone just like we did back in school.  Finally, August 3rd 2013, we had gotten back together.  Around February we took a small few day break; so much stress between us, we just needed a break.  Then in March, we took another week and a half break.  But every time we just couldn’t do it.  I have realized now what I never did before; Nathan is the only one for me.  We have our differences but we have to work through them.  We have to learn to communicate again and learn how to work through our problems.  Our main issue was communication and stress.  We are finding activities to do together and things to set time for each other.  We were both so busy with our lives that we didn’t focus on each other but ourselves (which through reflection I know I was the main culprit of this).  If we each focus on each other, it alleviates some stress; it’s good to know that you’re not alone and that you have someone to listen and talk to.  We plan on going to Church weekly together to grow together with God.  He brought me back to God.  We plan on exercising together and losing weight together.  We are trying to grow as people together so that we never lose what we had again.  I feel like I have received a second chance with my soul-mate.  I don’t plan on messing this up this time.


This is the man that I love and want to be with for the rest of eternity.  I am lost and broken without him; i literally get sick and beyond depressed when he is not in my life.  I get physically and emotionally ill without him which i think in a definite sign that we are meant to be.  He is always there for me and always knows how to make me smile when I am feeling down.  There are not enough words to describe what this man does for me.  The love he shows for me is beyond anything any prince charming could do, no, he is my prince charming.  This man…

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This is this man.  The texts don’t do it justice just how good to me he is.  I am truly blessed.

I could go on and on about Nathan 🙂 but I will stop there for today.  Thank you for reading, I have really enjoyed this blogging thing and am now asking myself why I haven’t done this in the past!

Catch Up; My Amazing Life :D

So Nathan and I are going to church Sunday.  I had a couple dreams about God and also about Hell so I’m taking it as a sign that maybe I am going down the wrong path religiously.  I figure church is a good place to find what i need answers for 🙂  

In other news i am doing very well…Nathan and i had hit a bumpy patch but through talking and working with each other we are stronger than ever!  I love him and I know he is the one we just have our differences sometimes and have to learn to talk and communicate better with each other.  He’s the only one who makes me  feel like i do and who cares…i feel his love for me and i love him even more in return!  He truly is an amazing man 🙂  I am still in school for Vet Tech and am doing pretty well there just finishing up some projects this weekend as the semester ends!  Still vegetarian and loving it! Still finding myself religiously but feel like i am being guided in the right direction and with the right people in my life!  ImageMy best friend and photography model is pregnant!!  she is going to make a wonderful mother to a baby boy :3  she is my fashion adviser and the best friend anyone could ever want!  She is helping me create a new wardrobe so i look more presentable in public lol.  I just feel so blessed to have her in my life and to be able to call her friend it really does mean the world to me!  Met her while working at Kroger and feel so damn lucky!  

Milo and Xander are doing well and Xander just hit 5 months! We found out that Milo is 9 months and was mostlikely born in June which my birthday is in June as well :3  Milo is my little protector and Xander is just curiosity masked with cuteness!


Image here’s Xander packed up and ready to go to his first Vet visit!  Came back completely healthy and ready to be neutered!  I had to hold Milo and he was nervous but he did well too!  He was completely healthy other than a very mild eye infection in which we got drops for and is doing very well now!  Image here he is being extra cuddly tonight!!

Imagethis is my first tattoo idea 😀  for my 22nd bday, which is coming up soon, i want to get my first tattoo and this is the idea!  what do you think?  music has always helped me get out of dark places and helped me through tough times…it is more apart of me than anything and want to express that somehow and thought this would be perfect!  I drew this myself so it’s a little rough but i think in right hands it could become something amazing :3

Okay I think that is all i have to catch up on sorry i havent been on lately just havnt had a computer up and working in a while!  but now i have a desk and everything i plan on writing often!  Thanks everyone 😀


I kind of just want to ramble today…I have a lot on my mind but I also have a lot that im thankful for.  My cat Milo found me in a weird way…i was working at Speedway one night and a customer came in and as i was ringing her out she kind of looked at me funny.  She said “would you like a cat?” and i, being allergic to cats, originally said no but when she said that she had found her (later we realized it was actually a him) at the end of her driveway and didnt want him and had no place to take him i crumbled and said “well let me see him.”  she brought him in Imagehe was gorgeous and she just left.  I talked to my Boyfriend Nathan and after he met little Milo he fell in love with him as well.  We soon found out that he had worms so bad that they were just falling out of him but once we got that taken care of, he was perfectly healthy.  He is the most amazing cat every (and i hated cats before him!) but soon we realized that he was getting lonely whenever we’d leave he would just meow for hours on end until we got back.  We decided that we would look for a friend for him and that is when we found Xander up for free on Craigslist 🙂  Image(that is right after we got back from getting him) After talking extensively with his owner, she was a lovely woman who just wanted to find the best home for her little kittens.  Xander was a perfect fit for Milo; more curious than anything where Milo is more laid back they fit together like two peas in a pod! Xander was born 11 October 2013, fitting for a black cat i thought, and Milo we thought was born somewhere in July.  Here they are today  ImageThey love to cuddle and they truly love each other as brothers :3  This is just one out of many things that i am so very thankful for…I am so thankful for my wonderful Boyfriend NathanImage we’ve had our ups and downs, good and bad but somehow life always pulls us back together again.  No matter how far we go from each other no matter how much we go through, we always end up back in each others arms ❤  we were high school sweethearts for two years then i was going into the army so at the end of summer i broke up with Nathan.  I went into the army and ended up being medically discharged which lead me down a dark path of feeling worthless and like i had just utterly failed.  I moved out on my own for a year then ended up having to move back in due to my roommate wanting to move back home and other various things.  i was in a bad relationship at the time and that’s when Nathan saved me from that…we hadn’t hardly talked for two years and one day we just started again and it was just like old times…he helped me back on my feet and I’ve been helping him through his troubling times with his sister having cancer and him fighting for his daughter (http://www.gofundme.com/68qifs heres a link to his support/funding site if interested in that story).  We had our rough patches and even took a break for a couple weeks to gather our strength and courage and to be able to focus on each other even with all the other things going on in our lives.  He is the love of my life and I know that no matter what happens he will always be there.  He is my security, my safe spot, and my comfort through everything because no matter what he loves me and i know it.  He’s the most generous, loving, caring guy that I’ve ever known and i feel so blessed that he chose me of all people to love.  NO relationship that i had those two years even came close to anything he ever felt for me or i for him.